i read once that when you wake up, you shouldn’t do sudden movements or you will forget your dreams. this never works for me. i usually wake up in a funk, thinking i am late for school (even on my day off, that’s life now) so my dreams are almost always forgotten. they dissolve every morning in to the air. i used to abhor this, i wanted to know what my dreams were about.. i used to feel robbed from my own mind. however, i don’t feel this way anymore. my mind has changed now, ever since all my dreams are about one person; one event, one single thing. all i want to do is let it go. & during the day, i do. but during the night? my mind is in another world. one that is both happy + sad, but i needn’t remember it anymore. i am still waking up thinking i’m late, forgetting all the pictures my mind painted for me while i slept, but every day i see something and it triggers the memory of the dream. this morning a the first song i played reminded me. i am unwilling to hold on to those memories, but being forced to keep them. i am stuck in a place where i am unable to go back to change them, and not allowed to move forward to forget.

Me. Always. Hi.

looked at a big shnazzy house today. it’s quite lovely and it just might be my new home come july. 18 days left til graduation and the weeks are flying by because there is a never-ending list of things to do and never enough time to do it. i will be in the city half the week for school, meetings, and a slumber party (sidenote: i will never grow up) so i feel it could be a hectic week. 18 days. graduation. then july comes around and that means moving out, buying a new car, meetings for the magazine, and summer fun. 

but right now its all about homework and this latte. happy sunday.

sometimes i miss things i’ve never had, and dream about people i’ve never met.